AuraQuartzArtist

okay
i was doing better
and i think it just got worse
by a lot.
my friends just
don't like me anymore
and i'm kinda left with one person now who's never there on time, but i cant blame her for that i'm just really inconvenient
but
all my attempts to reach out for someone
to call for help
were lost in some sea
i feel as if everyone just thinks i'm a pathetic person and overreacts an takes things too far
people say stand up for yourself
but i'm even worse
i tried and failed
one of the most painful things you can ever go through is the realization that you aren't good enough anymore
that feeling that nobody likes you
nobody really wants to talk to you or even be your friend
you kinda just never found the right people
and i really want to ind someone
who just understands same and who i can say anything to without being afraid
and i was so close
and then i blew it, and they probably dont like me anymore.
i just,,
i want to know what i did to deserve all of this.
i must have done something really horrible, because at this point i want to unplug everything and start over
like, i want to go back
and fix everything i did
maybe i'd be happy if that was possible
i just want it all to stop
but just when i think it will
another wave of depression and problems washes me up
its just an endless cycle, and i want to change that

uh
okay
so,
i dnt know
im really depressed lately
and ive noticed im really starting to make some bad decisions
ive yelled at a lot of people lately
and said some dumb shit
and just a small heads up,,
if i ever say something that hurts your feelings
just,
please dont let it get to you
its probably just because i dont know how to deal
and im just emotional lately
i dont know what im doing, like
i always plan out what im saying
but now im not thinking and just, speaking.
a lot of things are going on, and im jsut taking out all my pain on other people
so, i guess im sorry if i act like a bitch
i shoould just shut up, but
im just saying,
if i get mad
or say something mean
or yell at you
dont take it personally
thanks

Music meme

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the first line of the beginning of the song to answer the question even if it doesn't make sense.
4. Get your friends to try to guess the song if you can.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Hey Trace? 

WHAT'S YOUR OUTLOOK ON LIFE?
The elevated train by my window doesn't faze me anymore

WHAT DOES YOUR FAMILY THINK OF YOU?
This is the case of the people versus horton the elaphant

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Bustelo-Marlboro Banana by the bunch

WHAT DO STRANGERS THINK OF YOU?
All of this time I planned

WHAT DO YOUR EXES THINK OF YOU?
It's a bad idea me and you
(THIS IS PERFECT OH MY GOD)

HOW IS YOUR LOVE LIFE?
Once upon a time, there lay a small village at the edge of the woods.

HOW WILL YOUR LOVE LIFE BE IN THE FUTURE?
Where is my son!?

WILL YOU GET MARRIED?
I've never been a man who lived an office life

WILL YOU HAVE KIDS?
Tired, Blue boy, walks my way.

ARE YOU GOOD AT SCHOOL?
Caption

WILL YOU BE SUCCESSFUL IN LIFE?
Damn this is nice, I really like what you've done with the lights

WHAT SONG SHOULD THEY PLAY ON YOUR BIRTHDAY?
You've heard of several types of cat

WHAT SONG SHOULD THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Midnight, not a sound from the pavement

THE SOUNDTRACK OF YOUR LIFE:
You see this man?

YOU AND YOUR BEST FRIEND(S) ARE:
So this is the tale my mother told me

HAPPY TIMES:
I've seen this all before

SAD TIMES:
Good morning birds, good morning trees, oh what a lovely day!
(wow.)

EVERY DAY:
We won't sleep until he's dead
(WELL OKAY THEN)

FOR TOMORROW:
Jamie is over and Jamie gone, Jamie decided it's time to move on.

FOR YOU:
I miss that happy friend that I had

WHAT DOES NEXT YEAR HAVE IN STORE FOR ME?
Your eyes, as we said our goodbyes

WHAT DO I SAY WHEN LIFE GETS TOO HARD?
FIYEROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
(lol i scream fiyero whenever life gets me down)

WHAT DO I THINK WHEN I GET UP IN THE MORNING?
I should tell you, I'm disaster

WHAT SONG WILL I DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
I am not throwin' away my, shot.

WHAT DO YOU WANT AS A CAREER?
What you want, Warner what you want is me.

YOUR FAVOURITE SAYING?
This isn't happening, Inutil

FAVOURITE PLACE?
Time stops

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
When the news is all bad, when you're sour and blue

DESCRIBE YOURSELF?

WHAT DO I LIKE DOING MOST?
What is this place?

SONG THAT DESCRIBES MY SCHOOL PRINCIPAL:
Skimbleshanks, The railway cat

WHAT IS MY STATE OF MIND AT THE MOMENT?
I jumped over the moon, (what?!) A leap of, (She's back!) 

HOW WILL I DIE?
I never meant to make it, such a mess.

THE SONG THAT YOU'LL PUT AS THE TITLE?
Main title, Prolouge pt. 2

wow... there was, I believe, i song that wasnt from a musical.
thats sad.

(I got this from sweet-khajiit

so
basically,,
at school theres this girl who i used to talk to so much
and now things got in the way, like doing things afterschool and homework
and shes told me im her greatest friend
but im afraid that is gonna be taken away from me because of lack of interaction
and i really dont want to be #2 again, i want to mean something to someone
but now im scared im gonna be a #2, or we arent ever gonna talk
teverytime she said like "oh,, you're always there for me" or "you're my greatest friend"
it aways made me feel better, even if i had the worst day
but now im sitting here like
what if im just a friend now, or not friends at all?
because i get jealous easily, and that may not be the point
i dont know
this is so dumb because there's people out there who have nobody
i dont know, man
i just 
im really scared.. i dont wanna lose her. she means a lot to me.
i wantedd to say tha, incase anyone has advice, i guess
im probably deleting this later

GRYFFINDOR:
[x] You've never done illegal drugs
[ ] You have a lot of friends
[ ] You get along with everyone
[ ] You haven't made fun of someone for at least two months 
  ] You love soccer
[ ] You love baseball
[x] You're into writing and art
[ ] Favourite music genre is pop rock
[x] You believe in "innocent until proven guilty" theory
[ ] One of your favourite colours is red or gold
[x] Good grades at school
[ ] One of the worst things you can do is lie
[x] You plan on going  to college/university
TOTAL: 5

HUFFLEPUFF:
[ ] You're content with mostly everything in your life right now.
[x] You laugh a lot
[ ] You like to follow trends.
[X] Politics suck.
[x] You love to swim
[ ] Water polo is awesome
[ ] Pink is one of your favorite colors
[ ] Black is morbid & depressing still like it though
X] Michael Jackson is talented as a musical artist.
[ ] You're an optimist.
[ ] You're completely straight-edge.
[x] You're very emotional
   ] Rap, R&B, & hip-hop is your favorite music genre
[ ] You don't believe in going steady at a young age
[ ] You've made fun of at least one person this week.
TOTAL: 5

RAVENCLAW:
[X] You're depressed to a certain extent.
[x] You love to read.
[XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX] You appreciate theatre & arts.
[X] Sports suck.
[X] You're shy.
[x] Hate is completely unneeded.
[ ] Loyalty is the MOST important thing in a relationship
[ ] Indie is your favorite genre of music.
[ ] Every once in awhile you have little anger outbursts.
[x] Lying is sometimes okay
[ ] Red is one of your favorite colors.
[ ] Serious is better than funny. 
TOTAL: 6

SLYTHERIN:
[X] There's at least one person you hate. 
[ ] Basketball is a good sport. 
[ ] (American) Football is amazing.
[ ] Black is a cool color.
[ ] You've lied about something serious.
[x] You're a very deep person. 
[x] Very loyal.
[ ] You like metal.
[ ] They make school seem more important than it is.
[x] You're scared to grow up.
[ ] You've done drugs in the past month. 
[ ] Anger is one of your primary feelings.
[x] You have trust issues.
[ ] Guilty until proven innocent.
TOTAL: 5


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